If things are heavy right now
Parts of what I write sit close to hard territory, including suicide. If any of it is not an abstraction for you today, put the reading down and use the direct line:
In the US: call or text 988 — the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline. Free, staffed around the clock.
Anywhere else: findahelpline.com lists the same kind of line for nearly every country.
The reading will keep.